Saturday, December 14, 2013

1




I was the only midget in a herd of giants, hiding somewhere in a corner,
Discreetly, peeping into the skies to explore freedom of the open skies.
As if god heard my wish just before his rush hour of wishes, I was beckoned by my master ,
As if in trance, I blindly followed him…

The bruhat gopuras of the big temple arose as an oasis in the desert…
The master prayed, Holding me in his hand (decorated with twelve rings made of solid gold)…
He prayed vehemently to cover for his sins and as If to pacify the wrath of the big god, he offered me to gods as an offering of peace.

From one corner to another, from one jail to another I lay confined in this dark dungeon. The temple bells rang, thousands upon thousands of pot bellied men ate their share of gods grace. I waited, for a stray rice morsel to fly by, but  my wishes never seemed to go beyond the walls. huh! god was so near , yet so far...
Four days later, the sun tore into our darkness and the temple authority took me away. In his hand I stayed put, a small beggar dying asked for me yet this holy man walked off un-deterred chanting god’s name in a monotone…I wondered sadly

The holy man swiftly  got up onto a locomotive, with its wheels rolling it accelerated my journey of destiny, a man in dark brown uniform asked for me and gladly this man offered me with a smile, so again from one dungeon to another I was transported to another land. A few minutes later the holy man disappeared from view…

Soon after a few more stories shared with my brothers and sisters also in captive,
I was gifted with a snort to a young hand, holding in his hand a trophy. This small kid came into my life full of energy, sweating profusely handing me a bath after four years!!
His back arched with a huge burden carrying a truck load of books,   he wondered about his trophy, won in a basketball match but how would his parents take it when they knew he had failed an exam again…I loved this kid, so full of energy, heart so pure, voice so divine but suffering in fear… I felt sorry for him, He cried walking back to his home, ashamed distraught and dejected…he never noticed a truck coming in his direction, there was just one second of pain; I lay there in a pool of blood, as his lungs expunged its last effort to live…

The truck sped away…it was dark silent and ghastly, I shivered in the hands of a dead kid, so full of dreams , so talented...yet so easily taken to the world of hell and heaven… I wondered would his trophy or his academic records get him to heaven? 

Soon there came a drunken man, swaying gently in the breeze, he saw the kid there, collected all valuables he could find, he dragged me along too and left him for dead not bothering to call an ambulance...
I was bartered again for a packet of alcohol, paid by a dead kid on the side of the road…My newest master took me along, kept me under his bed and slept. I shivered and cried all night like a child running in fear…where could I run??

The owner took me along with his ailing mother, termed as a mentally disabled woman she was subjected to humiliation by society…but her son loved her, selling liquor he would manage to feed her , again I wondered at this man would he go to heaven  or hell??
on my next journey I met an autowallah, who ran his auto along the countryside, all over the world, swaying from danger, avoiding potholes, music radiating from his radio eternally; I roamed safely in his world, exploring the freedom of life…It was only when he gifted me away to a young teenage couple did I notice his legs in crutches, a result of an accident…I wondered again…life was strange

A happy couple, holding hands they walked…In their hands they held a tiny little magic box, dissipating strange lights and sounds,  They buzzed away blissfully unaware , caught in a web of deceit, merry and jovialism. But all was not well in the lives of these two lovers, so they set upon their destiny on road on top of a hill..The autowallah dropped them off and set about happy that today his sons would not sleep hungry. The young lovers walked now hands apart, speaking in harsh tones and blaming each other for their inherent sadness…after hours of squabbling they left their separate ways…I was still there hidden in the cusp of the scorned lovers grasp…I wondered what love really was??

The boy sad and disturbed took his bike and zoomed the night in the foothills of the nilgiri forests, Up and up he went revving up his rpm, The sun broke his vow of silence and out he came, bringing life back to the young boy’s morale…By the side of a river, he simply sat taking in the beauty of life…For now, his anger had left him; he threw me away wishing for a wish…
He wished that one day, he would be a great man having lots of money…The stream swept me away, putting me in mortal danger, I leapt in the air, bounced about boulders and fell from a height of a few thousand feet…There I lay on the floor of the river, breathing in peace, Away from the world I never understood…

Another journey began,  big men wearing white shirts and men who donned yellow robes came and blasted away the rocks I slept on …In greed they watched as tons of mineral ore lay in their possession….Again I wondered where god was???Letting his kind die in the clutches of immorality, in doldrums of corruption …
Who was I to change the world?? After all I was just a one rupee coin….just a rupee coin with a story to tell!!
But I was humbled again, another grown man, black bearded, gave me away as a part of fifty thousand and one rupees  donation to an orphanage for the blind. I just wondered there was still hope left…
Where would my journey take me next time…??
Maybe you could answer that when you get to hold me in hand…
Through cobbled streets, hands of the mighty, to lush lawns and bungalows, friends and frolick, plus the borders of craziness, to the humble abode of love, to the steps of religion, masks of sadness Bordering on the corridors of “change” I travel the world!!
So begins another journey,  ”saar one rupee change idre kodthira?” !!

Sunday, October 13, 2013

GOLD



GOLD, the young woman's envy...
GOLD, a young man's pride...
GOLD, a goldsmith's craft…
GOLD, a scientist's metal....
GOLD, the miner's means of livelihood…
GOLD, a common man's dream…
GOLD, a thief's desire…
GOLD,  god’s ornament…
Of what use my men is your GOLD, to a saint like me??

Gulab jamoon


The sweet stall held its nose high;
right in front of our school..

The fragrance rose tantalizingly drawing my vision to a throbbing crowd;
Continuously varying in the density of content of their eager faces..

I used to stand there on the lane..
Fill the vacuum of my huge stomach with the aroma..
leave, Contented by looking at the smile
of a old man munching his plate.. 

With only half an anna in my pocket..
the prospect of a tiring walk back home..
Fifteen kilometers I would continue my romance with a round sweet tasty
gulab jamoon

Walking through unkempt roads lost in my thoughts,

I would wait for my birthday each year
to share a gulab jamoon with seven of my brothers...


Saturday, October 5, 2013

SHE was gone...

On a starry night the lonely lad gazed up at the sky,
Staring at the magic on the velvet above...
The pleasant night,the warm winds and
the rumble of the calm ocean...
Gazing up at the cosmos above,he thought of her...
In all her poetic radiance in a white overflowing gown,
with a green pendant slung across her attire...
She walked slowly on the sandy beach below,like an angel on a dark night...
Like a breath of fresh air to dying heart...
He ran to her but she was gone...
All that he saw was a boat far far away and its white sail fluttering in the winds..

She was gone,all but a figment of his imagination...
He trudged back,silently cursing himself
On the warm sandy bed,he slept that night,
Dreaming of her...
Painting her portraits on a street in Paris,
wearing the same white gown,
Smiling in peace playing with a puppy on the street...
With each stroke of his brush,
she broke open the locked chambers of his heart,
Each heartbeat now a christendo...
as he but finished her portrait...

All that was left was her eyes to complete her imagery...
His dream of one true love...

the angry sun bore upon his eyes,he tore open his eyes
She was gone,she was gone...
D sun had risen...

IF.....

If books could read and ladders could climb...

If horses could fly and Death would die.....
If water was thirsty and Time grew bored of its punctuality...
If light grew fond of darkness...
If gold filled our bellies and Gods cursed our hearts...
If thoughts had weight,truth had sinned...
If destiny was written on our heads and dreams could sleep...
If wealth was free,health gifted in sleep
If if if if if if if,
If human were humane,
if compassion be the only divine...
If only trees grew in the air...
if only
If books could read and ladders could climb...

If horses could fly and Death would die.....

KARGIL

Each time the postman came by the road I ran to the window
and waited for a post to arrive from you...
As he marched away from home, i rested relieved...
With thoughts of dread, i would open your letters,
describing your adventures atop the hills of the mighty Himalayas,
carrying your gun,donning army colours,
Proudly bearing the INDIAN insignia...

Tears of joy pride and love overflow in bounds,
son I pray each second that you reach home safe again...
I've dreamed of you my son,
yesterday...
returning home victorious in war
Today on your birthday, I offered my prayers to the lords above us..
I look beyond the window anticipating your letter...
 
The phone rings...
Announcing that my son is a martyr...

MAY BE...


I write this poem drunk in the sweet nectar of your smile,
Drowning in the ocean of my desperation...

                I do not know if its love,
                   but d mere scent of your name lingering at the corridors
                         of my heart jump up in joy ,unbound unhindered
Every day I wait for a reply for my letter,

I wonder if the words of yours in reply were lost 
when a gust of jealous wind blew away your feelings for this lost heart..
may be just may be it shall arrive tomorrow...
May be 
just may be your too short of words to sing of this crazy fanatic...
               In this forever loop of maybe,
                 I sleep this night humming a tune romantic,thinking of you...
Maybe I already know you shall  never return my letter,
May be I just wanna feel my heart dancing in joy,
Maybe I am just a hopeless romantic in prayer of a miracle...

THE VAMPIRE....


He sat there tethered ,
still Sleeping without a care in the world,
His innocence written all over his face...
I stood above his dungeon,
Free to enjoy the freedom of the world,
The faint trickle of rain,
the blessings of the sun were all mine...
Each fortnight on a moonless night,i would unleash him,
He would hug me, his overflowing frame crushing me with pure love,
With a soul wrenching cry he would howl at the sky,
Jump into d unknown darkness and disappear...
He played with the trees,The night bats,
Enjoying the bliss of darkness...
When the sun gently came for his daily rendezvous, he would wake me up, wipe my tears
and bring his hands to welcome the chain...
He slept on my lap,sung of his happy times in the forests.
The innocence of his laughter,the earnestness of his smile,
His dark eyes irradiating love...
My eyes closed pretending to be asleep,
Cried from within,
With guilt chaining me to the dungeons,

Torn by his love,
each time I chained him, I lay cursing my fate in agony...
He was not a monster, I was...

BHEEMA

He hacked at it with rage pouring over his body,
his hands bloodied by the carnage he created,
again and again he smashed his bare hands onto the tree cutting it in half,
It poured its tears at his fury...

He hacked every tree until the forests was left with only stumps of  broken trees...
Keechak had his eyes on Bheema's princess, Draupadi !!
After thirteen years of forest travel,
just a month remaining to remain incognito the helpless bheema lay there in d forests panting in exhaustion...
Snorting his anger,the dams of control had snapped,he had bludgeoned the forest in a wild mayhem,fueled by revenge...
Caught in a scorpions pincer...
Swinging wildly,screaming his lungs hoarse, until every grain of power had gone away...
He sat on a rocky ledge overlooking his anger,
like a mad elephant he had razed the forests to null...
His eyes focused,his ears perched,his muscles waiting for the last week of incognito to end...
He would avenge his beloved wife's humilation, when his hands fell on d rat Keechak...
Until then the forest would mutely bear his rage,his storms of hapless anger...
his grunts of fury, his tears of helpless anger...

Friday, October 4, 2013

THE RED ROSE...

Tonight she sits on my window sill like a bride wrapped in gold,
blushing red in all her glory,
smiling upon fate...

She has traveled all across the world just to cross my path...
She is the epitome of  beautiful !!
A red rose on my window sill...
From gardens unknown,lands unheard,
Daughter of a proud heritage,
Enriched by the wisdom of  red earth,
showered with blessings from the night sky,
The power of light in her...
Plucked away from her brothers, sisters and countless admirers,
She has traveled on carts,
buses ,planes and past security checks too
to land in my arms on one magical night !!
She sits on the windowsill of my house,fragile fearless, a picture of  eternal love...
She shall stay there for a week may be as d queen,
When she fades she ll be thrown away like d rest of them...
To the earth she shall return,
a forgotten rose ,
with a heart full of love, dreams and  regrets !!

RESISTANCE


My eyes revolt asking for an extra spell of sleepy bliss...
my heart aches for another session of  dreamy conversation...
my Arms retire into a state of denial ,clawing again at d state of rest...
Mind however stays firm,the cause is greater...
waking up the sleeping eyes,
Chiding the  heart,
inspiring the resting arms

to explore d beautiful world beyond...

MASTER

6 multiplied by 6?

I blabbered twelve in haste!
I was standing on the old wooden bench shivering in fear,
As the village school master made his way towards me...
Thin lean n strict,perenially angry,with a large thick cane in hand...
6X6 he continued??
I nodded my head like a bewildered cow,
In a slow arc of his cane,
Deadly as a hurricane,it struck my legs with a bitter sound..
I wailed in agony,as my ears were caught in his grip..
He pulled it , twisted it hard hoping that the correct answer would
dramatically arrive on my tongue tips...
Another time I screamed,
even before his cane impacted the soft flesh of humiliation..
He strode back to the board,
Asking me to write the six tables a hundred times...
Slowly sobbing away I stood on top of a wooden bench,drenched in shame..
I told myself never to incur his wrath again...
I learnt his lessons like the holy scriptures...

and I prayed to the gods to spare me each time he walked around with his cane...